When to rest, how to break exercise addiction, and how to reintroduce movement for the right reasons.
If you are in recovery from an eating disorder, you will hear the opposite of everything you have been taught about exercise. Stop. Eat a lot and do very little. Gain weight. There is truth in this, and if you are in doubt as to whether you should exercise, then you probably should not. During my own recovery, I did not exercise at all for years — and it was the best thing I could have done.
Exercise adds stress to your body. It circulates stress hormones that your body would otherwise use for repair, and it spends energy your body needs for vital functions. Even if you increase your calories a lot, your body will use that energy for repairs before it allocates any to non-vital functions such as reproductive functioning. If you are underweight or still restricting, exercise can hinder weight gain, delay physical recovery and keep the eating disorder alive.
It can also be genuinely dangerous. If you are underweight, taxing your body can destroy muscle rather than build it. And with pre-existing conditions, electrolyte abnormalities or unstable blood glucose, exercise can even be fatal — even if it initially feels all right. That is a scary thing to think about, but it is important. So during recovery, taking a full break is, in my eyes, pretty much a must.
Ask yourself these questions honestly:
If you answered yes to any of these, you are probably using exercise to continue the eating disorder, and it is best to stop for now. Making that choice — and sticking to it — is how you start to take your power back.
Make the break easy for yourself. Cancel the gym membership, take the bus to work instead of walking, get rid of the fitness apps and the step tracker. Remove the barriers and the temptations. Replace workouts with calmer things: sleep a bit longer in the morning, take a bath, read, meet a friend. The urge to move will fade if you stop listening to it.
And remember that even when you are not exercising, your body still needs fuel. It needs energy for concentration, for basic functions, for repair. Do not cut your food because you are less active — that is the eating disorder talking, and it is exactly the wrong direction.
Once you are at a healthier weight, mentally in a more recovered place, and you have had the all-clear from your doctor, exercise can become a genuinely good thing. For me it was the best thing I ever did. I had been scared to reintroduce it for the longest time — scared it would become compulsive again — but once I was physically and mentally ready, I found I could approach it in a relaxed way: moving my body when I wanted to, and resting when I wanted to.
I chose strength training, because the goal was gaining strength and confidence after years of feeling frail, rather than shrinking or burning calories. Before you start, ask yourself three things: why do you want to exercise again, is your body ready for it, and what would your family or treatment team say? If there is any doubt, wait. There is nothing bad about waiting.
That urge is often the compulsion, and it is exactly what the break is for. Sit with the discomfort instead of giving in — emotions come and go, and it is up to you whether you give them power. Distract yourself with something else. The more you repeat the challenge of not moving, the easier it gets, and the more you prove to yourself that nothing bad happens when you rest.
Some very light movement — stretches, gentle yoga, short walks — can be okay if it is done for the right reasons: to feel your body, to de-stress, out of self-love rather than self-hatred. But be honest about the reasons. If your body may need full rest to regain your period or restore weight, even walking can be too much. When in doubt, rest. The recovery gains are far bigger than any fitness you might lose.
I did not suddenly put on loads of weight when I stopped — and I did not exercise for years. Your body knows what it needs, and it needs rest to restore. The fear that you will blow up without exercise is exactly the belief the eating disorder uses to keep you moving. Challenge it, take the break, and find out for yourself that your worst-case fears do not play out.